I have been feeling ill at ease recently, and I think I have located the source of my problem. It is so easy in Christian work to get very busy very quickly, doing lots of things "for God" but not actually involving him in the process. To make things worse, I am one of those people who struggles to still her mind for any length of time. In recent weeks I have taken to playing solitaire on my laptop while watching telly - I am so fidgety I can't even give a TV programme my full attention! I can sustain praying silently and alone for all of about 90 seconds before my attention strays elsewhere. One approach which has worked for me in the past involves producing a collage to represent a passage or verse from the Bible, the idea being that it gives my hands something to do while, in theory at least, my mind is listening to God. Another possibility is that I drag myself out of bed half an hour earlier and walk five minutes down the road to the university chapel where Jenny the chaplain prays every morning with anyone who comes. If anyone is reading this, please pray that God would help me wake up...
"I am the vine, and you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will bear much fruit; for you can do nothing without me." (John 15:5)
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